From Friday night till today my life derailed in the most spectacular way. I guess people can never say I do things small I also self destruct largely. Since the first of the year I have made a series of bad choices trying to heal from the hurt I felt. It is the only way I know how to deal with shit. But the last few days has changed everything.
Let's start with Friday night I also died because someone gave me something that caused me to have a seizure and stop breathing. If it was not for my friend coming I probably would be dead. That was a reality check and then my bff moved in and then I found out I was pregnant.
So that stopped football preseason. That stopped moving. That changed my game plan on everything. The only thing I can say didn't change is the fact I am going to Florida in April and California in May. At least I will not be huge at that point I don't start showing till around 6 months. This is going to be interesting because I don't plan to make any changes with working out and lifting and shit.
So this starts a new chapter of my life.