One of the most notable things that get in the way of my relationship is quests for other things. Be it my lust for love or Chris's lust for money there has been times that we have let it blind us so bad that it caused us to hurt the other in ways we never expected.
I am not the time to lust after money stuff. Sometimes I might get a little green with envy when it is flashed but I have grown up in a way that makes me happy with what I got. Sure it's great if I happen to get something more but I ain't going to die if I don't. As long as I have food, clothes, and a place to live I am okay. Chris gets blinded by quests for money. Sometimes he gets so determined to get something that he doesn't stop to pay attention to the people who are around him.
My fault? I had a lust for physical contact..a lust for the feeling that I actually matter. It led me into cheating on Chris something that has been one of the greatest downfalls to our relationship and something that I will never be able to make up for. His misunderstanding of my statement, "I don't regret anything I do in life" also led to a lot of fights between us. It's simply that I am sorry for it, but he can never know my guilt like I do. I don't regret anything because I don't look back at the past. I learn from my past but I am not stuck dwelling on it. I have seen what it has done to my mom and I promised myself when I was 12 that I would never be like that. The way my mom is also made me own up to everything I do. I refuse to blame someone else for something I did.
Today's pages of the "Love Dare" speaks on what happens when we fall into lust. "But those who want to get rich fall into temptation and a snare and many foolish and harmful desires which plunge into ruin and destruction" (1 Timothy 6:9). That was the verse that stuck into my mind because I have seen a lot of destruction come to our life and our relationship because of lust and pride.
End it now. Identify every object of lust in your life and remove it.
Single out every lie you’ve swallowed in pursuing forbidden pleasure and reject it.
Lust cannot be allowed to live in a back bedroom.
It must be killed and destroyed
– today –
and replaced with the sure promises of
God and a heart filled with
His perfect love.