Thursday, July 12, 2012

Day 19: Love is Impossible

So tomorrow I will be halfway thru this "Love Dare" challenge. Chris still says that I haven't done this. The thing is that I have learned a whole hell of a lot up to this point. I have a more clear view as to what love is and how to show it. Some days it is hard though when he is off the chain that I can’t just bite my tongue and be a good girl. 7 years of habit is hard to break and I grew up knowing not to let people walk over me like I am a doormat. But we aren’t supposed to do that in love. We are supposed to back down unless it something that could cause huge problems.

Day 19 of the Love Dare tells us that “you cannot manufacture unconditional love out of your own heart. It’s impossible…It’s beyond all our capabilities.” Love is impossible? I haven’t read forward at all and like today sometimes these post are off by a day, because, sometimes (especially since I am taking care of Chris where he can’t walk on his left leg) I can’t get the time to sit down and type. But I already figure out that you can’t completely be unselfish and unconditional because that would be going against are makeup as humans. We aren’t perfect…we can’t be because if that was the case we wouldn’t be sinful either. God is the only one that can be the master of agape love. How many times have you lied, lusted, or overreacting, from thinking ill of the person you love? I bet we all can’t count how many times we have got mad at that person and not walked away from a fight. We aren’t saints. Romans 3:23 tells us that all of us have fell short of God’s commands. That’s why we have to understand 1 John 4:7 says, “Love is from God.” So thru him all things is possible….to achieve the highest level of love humanly possible we have to allow God into our hearts. But still there will be times we will fail.

I think that is one thing that I am learning more so. See ever since I can remember my parents had me in Church. When I was like 12 this muscle packed group of men called “The Power Team” came to the mountains teaching and showing off their strength. I got saved that year. I fell off the bandwagon when I was around 15 and been trying to get back to where I am supposed to be since I had Xay. I want things to be the right way. I want to see my son grow up as a man in faith, who is mentally strong and full of compassion and empathy. There is a couple in my Church that when I think of the way we are supposed to love I picture them. I hope to achieve that someday because I know it is entirely possible. It’s a close to perfect as you can get and even though they might fight sometimes they forgive. Thru God all things are possible (Matthew 19:26)…and their faith brings them closer as a couple too.

Look back over the dares from the previous days.
Were there some that seemed impossible to you?
Have you realized your need for God to change your heart
and to give you the ability to love?
Ask Him to show you where you stand with Him,
and ask for the strength and grace to settle your eternal destination.