Thursday, June 28, 2012

Day 6: Love is not irritable

Day 5 was really nonexistant I mean I managed to get the dare done but truthfully Chris and I didn't go to bed till about 5:30am and we didn't move from bed till about 7:30pm so the day was pretty much over. I went to the store and grabbed some fries to eat with Xay happily in tow and then came home and been here ever since. PJ for some unknown reason (because its my parents house not mine) has been staying here so Xay has been extra excited to be with his daddy everyday. I am happy as long as Xay is happy at least in that department. I have been considering bringing him up to date with his shots so he can go to school but I am still on the fence because I want to home school but at the same time I want him to have friends and be able to be social because I remember those years fondly.

Anyways its 12:48am and I really should be in bed because I am supposed to be up for work and Chris is supposed to be going up to the courthouse in the morning. But I wanted to say that he told me he would give the Love Dare a try himself...and I know I said I had little faith in him and I still don't think he will stick to it daily like I am but maybe just maybe he will try it in his own way? Because today  yesterday while we were awake he didn't say anything bad and was generally a pleasure to be around.

Day 6 is about not being irritable. Not being quick just jump when someone says something....overreacting. I guess I can sit here and say I have been guilty. I look at most of the things that come out of his mouth as being negative sometimes before I really pay attention to what he is saying because that is what I am used to. I think the same holds true with how he says I have an attitude most of the time when I speak even though I don't think I do. Either one generally ends up in a argument.

The pages today said that the causes for irritablility was stress, selfishness, or lust. I think we all know that stress is like the little dude on my shoulders...and most people in this house truthfully. It's like I worry about everything else bills, work, xay, bills, bills...oh did I say bills? Yeah I stress a lot about that kind of stuff and Chris has a carefree attitude about it which I guess makes me a lot a bit irritable and then yeah I get all bent out of shape.

Eye opener...maybe it is my fault?

It said maybe I needed to have one set day to just destress and rejuvinate myself. Leave "margin" it said. Maybe its true because I do feel like I am on the go constantly and even now with all the rest I got I have a migraine the size of Texas.

I am going to try and sleep it off I reckon. But before I go....

Today's Dare
Choose today to react to tough circumstances in your marriage in loving ways instead of with irritation. Begin by making a list of areas where you need to add margin to your schedule. Then list any wrong motivations that you need to release from your life.