Thursday, February 16, 2012

Day 2: Frustration

Today was a day full of frustrations from home to work. I felt like I was running around in circles hitting deadends. I even feel mentally like I am battaling myself and my nerves and to even write (because I don't always get online) requires a struggle because my hand is shaking so bad.

Ironic really because I just read todays daily horosocope for Aries:

Do you feel like you're fighting an uphill battle right now, Aries?
Have you been struggling against some unseen tide, trying to get
something accomplished? If so, it may be that the universe is
trying to tell you something. Maybe your current quest isn't the
best thing you can be doing with your the precious time. Deep
down, you may realize this, but you don't know how else to get
what you need. But there is another way, and it's right under your
nose. Once you recognize it, you will immediately know that it's
the better path.

Today I have struggled a lot. Small arguments with Chris, biting my tongue at work, being patient, battling wills with Xay (the frustration of the word No!), battling to get Xay tomorrow, the list goes on but it's pointless to name them all. The point is the hair pulling screaming woman inside my head today fought a battle of wills with me and lost. I didn't give in the my urges to scream to lose control except once and boy did I get smacked on the hand for it. Because it turned out the customer I got rude was trying to call her husband dialed the wrong number and it was her little girl that was screaming at me...and I knew her. I felt like crawling under the register.

There is no trophy or golden medal. I won a victory of my owne even though it was hard to get there.