Friday, October 21, 2011


Today was a frustrating day where my parents are concerned. They started on me over money for Xay's food for the party. They made it seem like $6 on the food stamp card was so bad for them to pay because they paid for the cake and part of the pizza. Like they were trying to say they paid for his party when I bought everything. It made me feel like a bad mom because I wanted to save $10 to make it through the week.

I still feel down now because I can't provide like I should. Down like I could lay and cry but I can't let emotions control me. So instead I feel numb pulling away from the comfort offered.

Today was one of those days. So many questions bounce through my mind unanswered, unsolved.