Saturday, October 1, 2011


David has been at the house going on two weeks. I never expected to hook up with him because he is only 18 but the thing is he treats me so good, he makes me feel like I am special and like I matter rather then like I am a piece of shit.

He told me yesterday he could see himself loving me. I wanted to tell him I could fall for him too but I am scared to. I am scared to let him in because I am scared that he will just get bored and move on.

The funny thing is that he sometimes says things that make me thing he doesn't fully trust me. Sometimes things have to be earned though. But I have been on my best behavior. I want him to trust me more then anything. It's kind of weird because with Chris I got to the place where I just didn't care was like I was cold. But David makes me feel alive again. The one thing I appreciate the most is how he is willing to go places with me.

I guess only time will tell how this will work out.I just really want this to be the real deal. I am a 22 year old mom. I don't want just a stable relationship I want a family.