Saturday, August 6, 2011

My Life Story Uncut Uncensored part 3 : The Current Years

18 passed as a blur good times with good friends but they passed like seasons. When I was 19 I met P.J. he was a minor at the time and at first I didn't give him a second thought but persistance paid off and we started dating. Our relationship had it's up and downs from August when we started dating until I found out that was pregnant 5 months into our relationship. We were both excited though and ready for our Piglet to come along. When we found out it was a boy P.J. was excited and so was I. We decided to name him Xadrian because I lost the battle on naming him Adrian. Xadrian Rollan Todd came into the world on October 20, 2009. P.J. and I stayed together off and on until Xay was 9 months old when we called it quits.

Right after that Chris came back into the picture. Chris being my first love and someone I hadn't quite got over I jumped on the chance to get back together with him. I thought the road with P.J. and I was tough but this road has been harder. It didn't help that when we first got together I was diagnosed with depression and aniexity. From there the first round of meds made me not feel....I was in his words a zombie. Now it has nearly been a year since he came home and life is kind of at a stand still.

I am 22 years old, $9,000 in debt, unemployed (not by choice), a mom, and a college student. Life isn't easy by no means. I have lived in the same small town since I was 3 years old and I have had a good name and a bad name. But I keep having faith that God will straighten my life out eventually and maybe I can be the one walking down the isle like my friend did today and be as happy as she was.