It has been 20 days since my last post. 20 days and so much has happened that I am still left someone in the dust trying to catch up. The holiday season is upon us and I am still wondering where the last year has gone.
Things got pretty bad for two weeks after my last post. Things just hit rock bottom with Chris and he and I were fighting pretty bad. My oldest brother Shane came to live with us to get off the drugs. So it has really been one thing after another .
It is funny because even though those two weeks were pretty bad it is starting to get better. I started working at a restaurant 30 miles from here. It's waitressing and I only make $2.13 an hour plus tips but it is a job. It takes care of my bills if I use my money responsibly and it makes me happy. You see what had happened was I was always running for everyone else or I was stuck at home. It was a never ending cycle and it was bogging me down. Mom is trying so hard to get me to quit already after 5 days to find a job around here (which I had been trying to do). But here is the think I might be happy for a little while but I hate the boringness of a desk job. I hate sitting there for hours doing the same thing with nothing different. I will admit waitressing is pretty much routine but the people you meet aren't and that is honestly what I need. I am not a huge people person but it is honestly what I need at the moment.
I have been searching for a house or apartment to rent. There isn't to much around here truthfully. When tax season rolls around though I was hoping to get back enough to be able to buy a trailer and get it set up. That way I only have to worry about utilities and lot rent. I don't know though I am sure you can tell that I am full of big dreams it is just a matter of making them come true. But I dunno.