Saturday, August 14, 2010

I Feel Better

So this has interesting week. I had no clue that by the end of the week I would be once again considered "dating" PJ. I am still severely annoyed with some of the things he does but I came to the realization that everything that I am considered use to; all the things that I considered in my "happy box," is about to dramatically change. If this is for the better or worse is yet to be seen.

PJ made the decision to go into the Marine's. Under normal circumstances I would be dead set against this but I have come to the decision that this is the best thing probably that could happen to PJ. You all know my major issues is that he is immature, has no discipline, and is irresponsible. All three things which has to change if he is to be a Marine. When he gets out of boot camp he won't be the PJ I know he will be changed. For the better or worse is the big question on my mind.

I am still busting butt at these two jobs. I am away from Xay 6-7 hours a day and I miss him. He is growing and learning new things. He has what looks to be bug bites on his legs. They are huge red spots and they are hard. We have been putting anti-itch on them, but I am not sure if they are bug bites or not. On top of that he has been sneezing and coughing, and teething. But he seems perfectly happy. He has also started fussing in his sleep. He will be sound asleep yet its like he is whiny/crying and then he back to sleep. Sometimes he wakes up and I bring him to bed with me, but for the most part he is sleeping alone in his pack and play.

Mom has decided to play nice since the idea of me going with PJ is looking likely. I have been begging for a car since I was 16, decided that obviously I wouldn't get help from my parents so I have trying to build my credit and save so I could get a car, all the while severely pissed and hurt that my mother would buy two of my ex's cars but not me. So now I am trying to once again give me a car since between my parents there are four cars. Her response has been "well they are both in your name so I couldn't do anything if you took off with one." We both know she would have my ass if I tried to do any such a thing, plus she raised me better then to be like that. So who knows.

I got a new iPhone 8G 3Gs today. I would love to have a iPhone 4 however I cannot justify the cost and the only reason I bought this one is because I sold my iPhone 3G for $50. So I didn't do to bad. I wish that Apple would have a keypad for the iPhone because I don't like to do touch-screen all the time but overall I like the phones. It's like my computer on the go..(no this isn't a paid statement). I am kind of excited to see what kind of better thing changed between the other two.

I started taking vitamins again. I am taking folic acid, vitamin b12, and caltrate. I feel I have a little more energy. I am still at 138lbs but I am not exercising because I am constantly doing something else (such as blog or read the blogs I follow). But I am eating less over 4 small meals. So I am doing good. I feel kind of better.