Friday, March 19, 2010

What to do...

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I just have not felt like blogging the last couple of days. Things are weird at the moment. For those of you who are curious I haven't kicked PJ to the curb ... yet. He is treading on very thin ice. But what amazes me is he acts like NOTHING is different. But everything is. He admitted finally to kissing her ... to even having he in the car but she was "in the backseat." Is he really so stupid as to think that thinks can go back to normal? Apparently. I don't know what to make of it. Not that I am worried ... no people I just don't care. It's like this....I have expected this to happen so I was prepared. Did it hurt? Not at all. Did it piss me off? Oh yeah. So the question is ... what am I going to do about it? Well to be honest I am waiting. For what? Only I know that answer...mainly because he reads my blog. He doesn't seem to get how precarious his situation is ... and I don't think he until it is to late. He says that he wants to start fresh and new but the truth is that it isn't possible. There are been chance after chance after chance given. That's the type of girlfriend I have always been. However a woman can only put up with so much. But not to worry I am a strong willed person and something like a guys b/s isn't going to keep me down.

I know one thing for sure is that if I do end up single I am not doing this to myself again. I am so tired of being in one relationship after another and in all honesty I owe it to myself to step back and reassess everything. Things have changed...my priorities have changed...I have changed. I am not the same person I was and because I have not had time I am not quite acquainted with who I am anymore. Does that make sense? I need to figure stuff out.


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  1. Hey Babe,
    I know that was the worse thing anyone could have done but at least i had told you the truth. All of the truth that is. I'm not starting to blog cuz i wanna get talked about topics either but ive actually learned that you really do "Love" me from previous post. I really do love you and yeah i know i have messed up quite a few times to many and you should have broke up with me before things got serious.i Actually wanted to stay around you when we first met and now im glad we did. I wouldn't have my little boy to come home to and wake up next to sometime! I wouldn't have a beautiful girlfriend thats here when i need her. The sex really doesn't bother me because i can wait for 11:11 A.m. on Friday November 11th, 2011!!!
    On the other note, I am really glad i did meet you a year and almost 8 months ago. I don't know what i would do when i think of dad,which i do need to quit living in the past and worry about the present and future with you and Xay. He's not only spoiled by you and granny but also by me and papaw. Men have more affects on little boys then what women do because we know how they feel and we can understand them better..go ahead and laugh ahahah meanybutt. Your in bed and you and Xay look so beautiful. I might join ya..but going to now and quit rambling on about things. Man i think i'm good at blogging dontcha think???..lol..Love You and Goodnight baby..
    You Lamb..

    "And So, The Lion Fell In Love With The Lamb"

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