Thursday, December 17, 2009

Ms. Grinch

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So Christmas is supposed to be all about family? Yeah I wish my family would be united at least for this holiday season. But it seems like the harder we try to see everyone the more everything falls apart. Like my brother David he was supposed to come in for Christmas....I haven't seen him in over a year but now he can't come in and is telling me that he won't be coming in for a long time. That really sucks and all cause he is in the Army. Don't get me wrong I am very proud of my brother but I just wanted to see him and for him to see Xadrian. I didn't get to go up whenever he came home from Iraq. I dunno it just makes me super depressed because he and Xay were my two reason for looking forward to Christmas and Xadrian isn't old enough to really understand it yet. So yeah Christmas is all messed up this year and I can't wait for it to be over. I just don't feel like getting it the mood for all this....I have to have Christmas in the car thanks to mom and her mouth in Greensburg to see my two great-nieces, I have to go down also without my dad because him and PJ have to work. We are having Christmas here on Christmas Eve and we aren't even sure if we are going to be allowed to get PJ's daughter or not, and then I guess Christmas day will be filled with lots of driving cuz I got to go see my brother Shane, my sister Amy and her three kids, and mom and quite frankly if I didn't think everyone would be mad cuz they didn't get to see Xay I would probably just hide out in my room on the computer all day. Heck the cats are even tearing the Christmas tree apart one piece at a time. So why even bother? All I have done was waste a whole lot of money that I could have used to pay bills and buy diapers.

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  1. hey. i'm visiting from shoulders. i know completely how you feel. it is so hard around christmas especially with a little one. i have a little girl & am a single mom. she was born 5 days before christmas & it was awful. christmas day was terrible. it did not go at all how i imagined my daughter's first christmas to go. of course she was only 5 days old so i felt like "who really cares". i also felt like, here i went & bought all sorts of stuff for people who don't seem to appreciate it when i could have used it for much needed clothes, diapers, etc because i wasn't receiving support payments.
    all i can tell you is to try to focus mainly on your son and enjoy him & these moments with him, because he is totally worth it. also don't forget to share the story of Jesus's birth with him even if its super short, i didn't and i regret it this year. i wish i had because its so important to instill that early on.
    i'm praying for you and wishing you a merry christmas.

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