Monday, March 19, 2007

I have no idea where to start with all that I have dealt with the last couple days.

We will start with the Greg thing because it was the least of my worries. Greg got arrested and charged with A.I. and Criminal Trespassing. He also has over $8,000 worth of cold checks out. So he will be in jail for awhile. I pray that it finally teaches him something even though I know it won't.

Next is Chris.....OK he came over here the other morning crying just needing a friend and I always told him that if he needed me I would be there. So I listened to him, gave him some advice and gave him a hug and he left. Tim came home and not to much longer he called me and asked if he could come over and I said that Tim was home and he couldn't. About 4 hours later we find out he overdosed. I told him no.....what if I had told him he could come over would it had made a difference? He almost died.....if the police hadn't been looking for a friend then no one would have found him and he would be dead.

Finally Tim......we have been fighting a lot lately. It's my fault as normal.....I don't start the fights but I am the cause. Tim was mad cuz I didn't tell him about Chris and I have no idea why I didn't. I thought I did but I guess it slipped my mind. I told him that I called Brian and he met me at the block....which to begin with I left out the part that I called him. So now once again like 9/10 of my relationships my stupidity caused me to lose the trust. I am so fucking stupid!

I love Tim.....I am in love with Tim. Most of my ex-boyfriends still keep in touch with me but they are still ex's. They are my friends though.....the only friends I have and I don't want to see them get hurt.