Sunday, May 28, 2006

roll with the bad times

Okay wow there is so much drama in my life it isn't even funny. My mom was right when she said I have gone through a lot more then many people my age have. It sucks!!

Moms cousin died so we went down home. I wouldn't go to the funeral but she went to the visitation. We went and saw some people. We also went to Granny's grave and to mom's son Todd's grave. Soooo yeah.

Soooo I am once again at the crossroads with Ducky. I told him today that I was fed up and pretty much done. I told him that I wanted to talk face-to-face and I told him I would come back home if he would meet me. Mom drove 80 sometimes 90 to get home cuz he said he would and we waited 1 1/2 hours for him and he didn't show. I told her that if he didn't show that I was done and I meant it. Part of me wanted to believe that he really would do that but he did.

I met this new guy his name is Greg he is such a sweetheart....I don't know where it will go but I want to give it a try. He has returned the happiness I lost with Ducky. He gives me something to look forward to.

So I guess I need to go to bed.....I know I have a lot more to say but I am to tired to type it out. I also know that I need to update more but I don't even know anymore. BLAH!!!!!