Tuesday, November 29, 2005


Okay I realize that I probably should update a lot more then what I do because at one point in time I updated everyday. However between making blinkies and reading harry potter fan fiction I just don't find the time. However I do keep my user info pretty and I have a holiday theme picture on my layout now so it is pretty.

I haven't seen Ducky for 3 days now and tomorrow I am supposed to go take the lie dectector test. I know I will pass. I mean I ain't got anything to hide. *shrugs* I will also take the books back I have checked out and probably get the larger part of my Christmas shopping done. So cheers to me. I just wish I knew what Ducky was going to do.

Thursday is court! I ain't as nervous as I normally am the week of court because I don't think they can really do anything to me now. For real they can't use my counseling records againest me so I would love to know what they could get me with now. I see probation and counseling as the sentence but I am not sure. Plus if they think I will work with them and talk to so crazy doc after what they tried to pull on me they have to be stupid! I am not dumb though I do have a blonde moment every now and then.

Ducky still hasn't heard from his daughter. Stupid bitch kirby needs to be run over. Nor has Ducky heard from his lawyer about the settlement money which he is starting to get impatient with because that is how he is intending to his Christmas presents with.

Christmas is making me major antsy. Because I know I will have to go down home, I want Ducky with me, however Ducky is prolli going to have his little girl. Sooooooo that presents a problem. Because Greensburg is 3 hours from here. We always spend Christmas Eve with my brother.....buuuuut if Ducky has his little girl there is no way in hell that he can come with. Then the other problem is he has so far been mean about it and said he was not going and got pissy towards me everytime I bring up going down home. So what the hell am I supposed to do? I am being pulled in two directions. My family or the person I love. *sighs* I know I would choice him....so that isn't the real problem....it's my mother. She controls everything. I just hope that the 'no contact' with Ducky is lifed so I don't have to worry about getting caught by the cops or someone.

I guess that is it for now.