Monday, April 4, 2005

Happy Fucking Birthday

Well yeah I guess I am now 16. Isn't that wonderful. I am 16 today and officialy on complete lock-down. All because I tried to have a converstation with mom and she didn't hear a word I said. She said I had an attitude. So yeah I am not allowed to leave the house. I am not allowed to have anyone over. I am not allowed to do anything. Ducky isn't even allowed to come over. I asked her if she wanted me to get depressed and suicidal like I used to be cuz this is what caused it. She said that she didn't care. Isn't that wonderful? We took my brother and cousins up to Natti yesterday. Yeah I wish to God I could have stayed with them. Coming into Cincinnatti yesterday just felt like home. But yeah they say they will be back in two weeks tops and I get a shopping spree but I don't really count on it. I met my Great-Grandmother. She is a total bitch. I met Shane's grandmother and grandfather. They are really sweet they fed us and everything. I wish I could runaway and stay up there with them....or I wish Ducky was here and that he could talk my mom into letting me go with him. I don't want to be here for my birthday. I want to be happy not sitting here crying like I am doing. I had hoped that I would have the first good birthday that I have had since I was little. But no its just like every other one. She fights and screams at me. Isn't that just great? Well Happy Birthday to me.